I recently tried MDMA for the first time, and what I experienced was extraordinary. This story may seem random, but the things I saw and felt during my trip are things I genuinely want to share. I want to talk about the insights I gained and the spiritual truths that surfaced while on this journey.
It all began with a trip to a salsa and bachata congress. My friends and I were excited—we’d never attended together before, and although I’d been to a few events in the past, this was my first time going without my ex-girlfriend.
Context
I had broken up with my girlfriend about two months ago, and I was ready to explore new experiences. I love dancing, and this was my first congress with friends. One of them mentioned he had some MDMA, but I avoided it at first—I didn’t want to take a psychedelic while dancing. I’d been avoiding psychedelics for a while, feeling like I wasn’t emotionally ready.
Friday and Saturday passed smoothly. I drank a bit and danced through both nights. By Sunday, I was feeling incredible, so I meditated on the idea of taking MDMA, checking in with my body. As I meditated, I felt the beginnings of a psychedelic trip in my mind—I sensed my subconscious was nudging me to try it.
I told my friend, and fortunately, there were only two tabs left—one for him and one for me. He reassured me it was a mild dose, though deep down, I was craving a full-on experience. Within ten minutes of taking it, I felt the effects kick in as we were talking with friends before heading down to the social dance.
Suddenly, I felt a surge of energy. As I looked around, everything seemed to speed up or slow down in waves, leaving traces of movement in the air. I knew I was starting to trip. Taking a deep breath, the visuals softened, and I settled into the experience.
In our conversation, I noticed my thoughts had become lighter and more positive. We were discussing the occasional negativity on the dance floor, and one friend mentioned how great it would be if we could resolve those tensions through dance battles. I realized in that moment that I wanted to bring people together through dance, to heal the community I love so much. I shared my idea of creating conversations around our love for dance, to highlight how it connects us. It hit me: I wanted to start a podcast that dives into people’s relationships with dance and how it’s transformed them.
The Ceremony of Dance
Later, we finally headed downstairs to the dance floor. I walked into the bachata room, and as I listened to the bass and drums, it felt ceremonial. I was transported, seeing a vision of a tribal gathering—fires everywhere, drums pounding, and people dancing and celebrating. It was like an echo of a past life. I sensed the ancestral roots of the dance, seeing how the essence of those gatherings had carried through to modern-day music and dance.
I saw how countless people had contributed to this music over generations, bringing together rhythms, instruments, and emotions to create something timeless. It was a gift from the past, filled with cultural layers and history.
Then I focused on the people dancing. The women, dressed beautifully, waited to be invited to dance. The men on the dance floor performed, showing their unique style and connection to the music. It felt like a sacred ritual, a communion between partners. I saw the women in a new light—their receptivity was like a divine gift, a shared beauty in their willingness to be led. I felt a deep sense of trust and connection, as if each woman carried within her the nurturing presence of the Mother Goddess. I was ready to join them, to be part of this communion.
The Giants of Salsa
Later, I met up with my friend, and we headed to the salsa room. This room felt different yet equally profound. They were filming performances, using vertical light bars that cast a fiery glow around the dancers. In my mind, those red lights symbolized fire, creating a sacred dance circle. The performers were giants in that circle, embodying a higher energy, a state of being that takes true artistry to achieve.
Watching them, I felt as though they were powerful, almost mythic figures—giants dancing between flames. They carried themselves with a presence that was both commanding and graceful. I realized that their artistry wasn’t just about technical skill; it was about the energy they harnessed and shared with everyone around them.
In the end, I saw the entire event as a kind of tribal ceremony. The music, the dance, and the people created a space filled with history, culture, and spirit. The experience revealed the sacredness of dance, showing me how deeply it connects us—to each other and to something far greater. I left with a new vision, a desire to share this beauty and to bring others together through the healing power of dance.
Implications of the Vision
Reflecting on this experience, I realized there are profound implications that go beyond the dance floor. Here are a few of the deeper insights I took away:
- The Divine Role of Women in Dance
My vision revealed a sacred aspect of dance for women, inviting them to embrace their femininity, grace, and inner strength. Dance allows women to step into a divine role, connecting with their feminine energy in a powerful, celebratory way. This role in the dance community can be a pathway for women to tune into their essence and express themselves authentically. - Artistry as a Frequency
l—it’s a frequency that anyone can tap into. My vision showed me that artistry is an energy accessible to anyone who opens themselves up to it, regardless of their background. It’s about surrendering to the music, the moment, and the connection. This frequency of artistry is universal, a reminder that anyone can express themselves artistically if they are attuned to it. - Connecting to Something Greater
This vision helped me realize that dance is part of a vast, enduring legacy, one that spans cultures, histories, and generations. It’s a connection to something that existed long before us and will continue long after we’re gone. This deepened my appreciation and commitment, showing me that each dance is part of a larger tapestry, a sacred tradition that lives on. It’s a call to honor this connection, to see dance not just as movement but as a sacred act, connecting us to ourselves, to others, and to something eternal.
These revelations have added a new dimension to my relationship with dance, one that I hope to carry forward and share with others.